Taylor Swift feat Zayn Malik: I Don’t Wanna Live Forever



It’s a totally different sound but I like it, it’s for the movie “Fifty Shades Darker”, she wrote the song with Sam Dew and collaborated with Zayn Malik. The song was produced by Jack Antonoff like mostly everything from Taylor.

It took one week to produce this song as Jack let us know via twitter, Zayn sent his record parts from LA and then they produced it together in one day I think, cause Zayn posted a pic on Instagram were Taylor has a dress that we saw already back in September when they were spotted together with Gigi Hadid.

This is the link for iTunes, go buy it for your Friday night:


Been sitting eyes wide open behind these four walls
(Hoping you’d call)
It’s just a cruel existence like there’s no point hoping at all…

Baby, baby, I feel crazy, up all night, all night and every day
Give me something, oh, but you say nothing
What is happening to me?

I don’t wanna live forever, ’cause I know I’ll be living in vain
And I don’t wanna fit wherever
I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home!

I’m sitting eyes wide open and I got one thing stuck in my mind
Wondering if I dodged a bullet or just lost the love of my life

Baby, baby, I feel crazy, up all night, all night and every day
I gave you something, but you gave me nothing
What is happening to me?

I don’t wanna live forever, ’cause I know I’ll be living in vain
And I don’t wanna fit (fit, babe) wherever (wherever)
I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home

I’ve been looking sad in all the nicest places
Baby, baby, I feel crazy
I see you around in all these empty faces
All night, all night and every day
I’ve been looking sad in all the nicest places
Give me something, oh, but you say nothing
Now I’m in a cab, I tell ’em where your place is
What is happening to me?

I don’t wanna live forever, ’cause I know I’ll be living in vain
And I don’t wanna fit wherever…

I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home

I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home
Until you come back home…






Challenging myself: Drawing.

It was back in August I think, when I saw a post about this young girl drawing Taylor Swift. And her drawing was amazing and the thing is that she actually can create exact replicas of her dresses (like get me one already!). Then one of my friends decided to start drawing Lea Michele and she was/is still good with it that I was like “should I try?”

And I did. Still learning, still trying. But with the advantage of technology, we barely use paper and a pencil and I wanted to challenge myself.img_6463

So first I tried to draw a look from my favourite actress/singer ever: Bethany Joy Lenz. She has been my inspiration since forever, so I wanted to try to draw her first. It’s not the greatest but if you never try, you never know right?

I posted it on twitter and one of the best pages about her told me that they found it really good. That was nice of the girl that wrote it. Sometimes you just need a little compliment to lift you up.

fullsizerenderAnd then I tried to do Taylor’s outfit from a day out with her mum. And I am really proud of the hair, they came out really Taylor-ish.
For this one, I’ve worked on it for a few days, and I had a problem with colouring the top that Taylor was wearing but pretty much, as a second drawing, not that bad.

Anyway, I have much more ideas, I have to challenge myself somehow. Hope you’ll like it.




Last week was such an awful week for the world. Nice was attacked by terrorist, 84 people were killed. The day after the attack another tragedy happened in Turkey 265 people was killed.

And still, I don’t understand how people care more about a stupid feud between pop stars, that are clearly trying to get attention cause people have a more serious problem to think about than them.. but I am wrong on this too.

Last week, one of the most famous DJ known as Calvin Harris decided to throw some shit on her ex-gf, after, her peeps, decided to release the news that we all known from the beginning, that she wrote his late single. So instead of being thankful for it, he decided to create a scandal. (Just to get more attention on a song that already is the summer hit.)

Now, let’s get some straight point, yes I am a huge fan of Taylor Swift, I’ve followed her for 10+ years, but my friends knows that I am objective on everything. I’ve been a huge fan of a lot of people, but in the moment they strike something wrong, I am out.

So my question is easy, how people care more about tearing down a person, that honestly is just taking some time off, instead of caring about this world that we live in.

I am just tired, to get on Twitter and see people tearing down a pop star that it’s not doing anything wrong from my POV.

I mean, let’s say the story in another way, okay?

“We have ‘Beth’ in the picture, she is a young girl, she just turned 18 and she finally made it in the big music world, her dream since she was 11. When she was in middle school, she was bullied, like we all are, just cause she preferred staying home with the family, and sing and write songs than going out with friends and be cool. In high school, she started to have the first boyfriends, first heartbreaks, first crushes (like WE all do) but she hasn’t been lucky in love. She was cheated on, she was lied on. (like it happens to all of US)
Let’s skip 10 years forward, ‘Beth’ is the most famous singer in the world, and one of the richest one. She made billion of dollars, she sold millions of albums, won thousands award and still she is the most hated person in the world.
She wrote a song about all the haters, actually two songs, and became even more famous. What people don’t know is that ‘Beth’, didn’t use only her breakups to write songs, she wrote songs about a friend that died, she wrote a song about a little kid with cancer cause his story touched her so much that she wanted to do something for his family, she wrote songs about friendship, she wrote songs for her friend’s love and heartbreaks.
So Beth only did what she loves: songwriting. Still, people prefer to tear her down cause she is this crazy boyfriend addicted person.”

Does it sound different to you if I change the name? Does it sound awful? Does it remind you of one of your friend who has been cheating on?

What if Taylor was a boy? Will she have the same hate? Cause it took Calvin one tweet and nobody I saw, judge him for it, right? (and he has history about tearing ex gf down)

And now we have other two nemeses of TS, “the Kardashian’s clan”, let’s say that I didn’t know anything about them till they started to hate on Taylor or with the transgender “scandal”, that’s how much I care about people that think that showing their naked body on Instagram is the way to show that you can accept yourself whatever size you are, that’s bold to show your naked body, HELL NO! I can love myself, my body without showing my boobs or my ass to the entire world, it’s not sexy, it’s vulgar, gross, whatever you wanna put it.
Let’s get back to the point.. so the lovely clan, famous for.. what honestly? (Apart from Caitlin, the only good thing about that family) just tearing people down and showing boobs and a reality show that I’ve never watched cause I have a life to live??

So, they recorded this video, whatever, where Taylor DOESN’T (listen to it, people), approve the real lyrics of the most hideous song ever, (cause if the only way to make yourself popular is to show naked celebrity body in your music video, I am sorry for you!) she founds it funny and whatever, but still she didn’t sign off for everything that happened after and for the right lyrics.

Selena Gomez, Taylor’s BFF, of course, like any best friend would do, kinda defended her friend but she got attacked for a stupid thing like she didn’t write about the terrorist attacks? So what? Do you think this will make things better? Plus, anyone is free to write whatever they want, that doesn’t make you less human or that you show that you don’t care. Fuck off people. What do you think? That you tearing down and bully someone cause it’s famous, makes you a better person? No, it freaking doesn’t. You should all grow up.

Yes, it’s weird her relationship with Tom Hiddleston, but honestly, it’s her life, not mine. As long as she keeps her clothes on (something impossible in this business) and she writes her songs, I am fine with it.

Now the world, instead of thinking about what should we do about these freaking terrorist attacks and care more about going outside and live their life, prefer to talk about these. Stop watching your phone or tablet or laptop and just go outside and look around you.

And with this, I finish, I just had enough of the drama..



“When did we start letting boys dictate our happiness?”

“When did we start letting boys dictate our happiness?”


Everything started I guess in primary school, I had my first boyfriend, if that’s how we can call it. But he cheated on me with my best friend during a gym class. So I had a pretty bad start with relationship, not like I am still thinking about that specific moment, I barely remember, I was way to little. Don’t even remember if we actually were together but the general plot is that one.

Anyway, for all my first 13/14 years of my life, I was kind of a boy-girl. Didn’t care about make up, didn’t care about dressing nice or wear the right shoes. For me going to school with a ponytail and gym suit was fine. Not a problem at all. Of course, I’ve been bullied because of that. Especially from boys. But I wasn’t scared of reacting, in fact that brought me to the principal office, first and only time in my life.

But it was when I was 14/15, when I was going to my first year in high school, that I started to like this guy. He wasn’t even going to school with me, he was from my group of friends. It was that guy that I knew from when I was little but I’ve never saw like more than a friend. Well, long story short, I liked him, probably fell in love with him, (yes, I think it’s possible to love someone even if you are not together) but he didn’t feel the same way. He thought that I was just a friend. And there it is my first “friendzone” situation.

Let’s skip all the drama moment that I had, when I was 16 and I thought that writing a blog and say bad things about that person was a cool thing to do and let my friends do it for me too. I was little, hurt, and didn’t know much about boys (not that I am a expert now!)

Well, for getting over this guys took me 2 year, plus the 2 years chasing him, let’s say that I waste a lot of time looking only him, for me there was no other boy that could have been like him. large

Of course, during the two years that I spent trying to get over him, I had liked other guys, but one of them push me in the friendzone, even if he was flirty all the time. And the other, let’s say, that we went to a date and it lasted an hour. This can explain everything to you.

After those years, I’ve had two other crushes but I was too scared to tell them. Especially to one. (I still fancy him!)

My life went on and as much as my focus wasn’t only on boys, I was wasting load of time and energy on chasing them. When they never wanted me.

Then I’ve moved to London, to the rain city, to the city that never sleep. I thought that I’d have leave all my boys problems there, all my insecurity back to my home city, but they just showed up in the first moment that I liked a guy.

It took me 3 weeks and I had already this big, huge crush on this guy. He became one of my best friend too (till he left!), he was everything that I was looking for. And we were really close, that people thought that he felt the same way but when I confronted him, he, of course, rejected me.

He kept acting like more than a friend which it was confusing for me and at the end he just left, disappeared from my life. We kept in touch for a few months and then gone.

After him, I was bad, I was really frustrated. So I moved, I changed place of work and I’ve begin again.

It took me a few months to fell for another guy that this time tho, liked me back, or that’s what he made me think for two months. I was really happy, I felt great about myself, even if I’ve always felt like there was something wrong, in fact he ended things unexpected.large-3

This happened with the start of the new year and the rest of it was really bad. Not only because of him, but that’s what I let a lot of people think. Because I don’t trust them enough to say what’s the real problem.

Let’s not get out of the point as always.

After that I felt like a 10000 cars pass me over. Or trains. Or whatever. I felt like shit. I felt hopeless, like I would never ever like somebody.

But I’ve changed job again and a new place, new people, I fell for a customer. He is the perfect guy. And when I’ve gave him my number, he didn’t do anything. Now, I am gonna start in a new store as a supervisor so I won’t see him again.

I’ve realise something, I’ve spent so much time, waiting, chasing, wanting guys that used me or didn’t want me.

I am tired to waste all this time. People says that you need the other person because you are gonna be alone without.

Well, they are wrong, yes, it’ll be lonely sometimes, especially when all your girlfriends have a boyfriend but I am not alone, I’ve got my family, my friends and most important I have me.large-2

Why should I waste time looking for that perfect love that more you look for it more it won’t come? Why should I keep crying because I’ve actually tried?

I have to start to focus on myself and my future. If meanwhile, that guy that wants me will come along, I am gonna be happy to try. But I am done with chasing. I am really tired about that. Gotta focus on other things. Things that I didn’t focus on in the past 9/10 years.



“We’re all bored, we’re all so tired of everything
We wait for trains that just aren’t coming
We show off our different scarlet letters
Trust me, mine is better

We’re so young but we’re on the road to ruin
We play dumb but we know exactly what we’re doing
We cry tears of mascara in the bathroom
Honey, life is just a classroom”

[Taylor Swift]

Taylor never go out of style

February Friday 13th, somebody will think is a day that brings bad luck. Somebody will be relieved because the weekend is finally here and they don’t work. Somebody will be exited for the date that they will have the day after.
But something greater happened this day, today. Taylor Swift released her new single (not so new to me, since I listen to her album everyday!) “Style” ‘s music video.

Before I get into the comment of the video, I must say that I listen to this song on a daily base because it reminds me of the guy that I have a big crush on. I just love the chorus with the James Dean reference and red lipstick.

The video stars with Taylor’s profile that fades into a cave that has the same profile and I am really hoping that they will give us a BTS video because this is crazy, it must have taken days to find something like that. And we see him on a beach and we hearlarge waves.

Then the music starts and a few images rolls on, we got Taylor barefoot in a forest and we got him in what I guess is a room. Then again this shape of Taylor mixed with a forest.

We can see how he thinks about her and she thinks about him and the story that they had.

Before the chorus starts, we have this image of Taylor and a broken mirror or glass that goes with the lyrics “I know exactly where it leads but I watch us go around and around each time” large-5

You can see it in different ways, but how I see it, it’s that you already have been broken from that person but you can’t resist from going back to him and you know that you will finish broken anyway.

I love the idea of using pieces of mirrors with one of another and maybe showing that they knew who they used to be but they are so different from what they were, especially in the part where she holds a piece of mirror with her own reflection.

Then versus 2 starts and he is in a car, he watch in the rearview mirror and he sees him, this could mean that he’s looking at the past.

And then the scene pass to them being together again, they know they miss each other and what it used to be so they get caught in that circle again.

So for the chorus again, this time, we got a storm, probably all the feelings that they feel for each olarge-4ther, then we got rain that could be feeling bad or that wash away all the pain and then there is the sun coming up again, starting to feel better and at the end the rainbow, because after a storm there is always a rainbow.

Then we got all flashbacks, present images, the “I don’t know what to do about these feelings, are they really gone? are they still there?”

At the end she seems lost in the woods and he is the one to find her because at the end he probably is the one that know her the best.

This is my interpretation of the video of course, it might mean something completely different. However, I think this is definitely one of the best video that I’ve ever saw because it’s not just a playback video, the graphic is absolutely gorgeous.

I was really waiting for this video and it’s stunning. She did an amazing job with it. The general idea is brilliant.

One thing that I noticed is how much she grew up and not in a bad way, like a lot of stars, she is so classy and I am pretty sure that we are growing up together because I’ve never felt so close to her like in the past 2 years and half.

We both got our heart broken and we both decided to focus on ourselves large-3and don’t let some stupid guy to decide our happiness.

It’s really good that I got her as one of my idols, as someone to look up to.

Thanks Taylor, for everything. You never disappoint me. You never..go out of style. (See what I did here?! lol)

Your super fan,


P.S.: one of my colleague said to me the past month “She should know who really loves her” about me being super fan of Taylor and talking about her everyday. I’ve actually convinced one of my colleague to download the album. And now she sings with me.

The singer that helped me to feel.

It was back in 2007 when a music video called “Teardrops of my guitar” had starring one of the actor from my favorite tv show ever. At that time, I couldn’t imagine that the singer would have changed my complete life after that.

Straight after that song came out, one of my classmate of that time suggested me to listen to a song called “Our song” and I knew already that song because the fact that THAT singer was a fan of my favorite tv show made me already a fan of her. Even if she was blonde. And it was a time that I didn’t like blonde girls (and I became one some year after!).IMG_5823

Well, if you still didn’t get it, the singer was the amazing human being that is Taylor Swift.

Yesterday, it was Taylor’s birthday. Her magic number 13, that somehow, it became a lucky number for me too.

AIMG_5943 lot of people don’t like her and don’t understand why is she so popular because she doesn’t have a strong voice or she is too skinny or she is a kid because she sings only about her ex boyfriends. Well, that’s just general knowledge that media likes to talk about.

If you just will give her a try and understand her true story, you may understand a lot about that ex girlfriend of yours that broke your heart or actually what you did to her when you decided to cheat on her.

But Taylor doesn’t sings only about this, she wrote a song for a kid that died of cancer, she goes to visit fans in hospitals and sings with them, she writes about having fun and be yourself because there is nothing wrong in that. She writes about being that shy dork that can’t take the courage to say to a guy that she likes him.

Taylor saved me a lot, especially in the past year. She was the only thing that I was holding on to. She was the one that made me understand that it’s right to feel a lot.

IMG_5855Taylor just writes everybody story.

She reminds you about being Fifteen and believe so much in love that you are too naive to understand when it’s not real.

And then when you thought that you had the first real Love Story but he was only playing with you and he just liked the attention. But you are so in love with love that you are just waiting for someone to show up on The Other Side of The Door.
Taylor taught us that it’s normal to have a crush on a Superstar and don’t be ashamed of it, instead sing to him and scream his name, even if you are just a normal girl.

More time pass, more I relate to her, and I feel like we are both experiencing the same thing. Especially when you just believe so much in someone, when you are just 100% yourself and they leave you behind and all that you are left with are the memories that you remember All Too Well. And even if you thought at that time that it would have last Forever And Always, you are just left with a broken heart.

But then you have that moment when you understand that they are just another Picture To Burn and that you have to pick up all the pieces and Begin Again.

And when they reach back to you, you just have to let them know that “All You Had To Do Was Stay”.

Tay made me realize how much I love simply a month of the year and all I wanna do is gIMG_5910o Back To December all the time because something amazing always happens. But especially she taught me that people will always be Mean and the only way to get over them it’s to Shake It Off because if you get angry, you just waste a lot of energy that you can use in something else. Something better.

Well, I can just say: Thank you Taylor. I saw you twice and it was a great experience both of times. I just wished I could have actually talked to you and make you understand that I don’t feel like a normal fan but that I actually understand your real message in a lot of songs.

I wish I could see you the next year too but I don’t think I’ll be able to.

I hope you had The Best Day yesterday,


Franc    esca

You gotta love December


And we are already in December. Can’t believe it. This awful year is actually finish. Only 31 days left. I have this feeling that I will be pay off from 2014, that 2015 will be my year.

I love December, it always have been my favorite month: the christmas atmosphere, family, food, laughs, gifts, love, the promise of a new year and loads loads of happiness.

Lately, I’ve found out myself thinking about last december. I was really happy like I’ve never been. And maybe it was even the last time that I was actually happy, I think it was the 27th of December 2013, when I was coming back to London and I actually wanted to come back for the first time, I wasn’t feeling bad leaving my life in Rome again, I was just waiting for that plane to land because I would have been soon with the people that I thought I’d could trust.

I remember that day so clearly and everything that I felt.

And this year? Actually December is turning to be a good month, maybe it’d be, as always, the best month of this unlucky year.

I have already got so many good news like my mom and dad are planning to come visit me in 2015, I am so happy for that. Then, I had some good news at work too. Finger crossed everybody.


Aaaah don’t you love December? God, I love this month. It’s never wrong. I love the music. I love Christmas (more since I am in London, because it means coming back to my family). I love snow. I love hot chocolate (and now that I work in Starbucks it’d be amazing). I love peppermint mocha. Even Taylor Swift sings about December (and it’s my favorite song!).

So I had an idea, if you wrote your resolution last year, don’t open it on 2015, open it NOW and make them happen. You still got a month. Do it. Or do you wanna have other regrets to add in your list?

A few years ago, I’ve even started to write a letter to my future self every year and it’s so nice because you can see how you changed. So just open them, read them and make them happen like in the movie “New Year’s Eve” when Zac Efron helps Michelle Pfeiffer with her resolutions and make them happens on the last day. Just do it. Do something that will make you feel good and don’t live with regrets.
If I’ve learned something from the past year is that life is too short and things changed from one hour to another.large-2

Then you can write the new ones whenever you want. If you’ll do that just let me know, I want to know if you’ll manage to do them all (if some of them are impossible for lack of time, don’t feel bad about it, you can do them in January)


december lover