Music Monday!

This week let’s do a throwback to the 90’s – beginning of 2000. Playlist of the week is a bit cheesy I know (don’t judge!):

  1. Get another boyfriend –  Backstreet Boys
  2. I’ll be there for you – The Rembrandts
  3. Dreams – Gabrielle
  4. Here with me – Dido
  5. I miss you – Blink 182
  6. With me – Sum 41
  7. Wherever you will go – The Calling
  8. Have a little faith in me – Bon Jovi (cover)
  9. A moment like this – Kelly Clarkson
  10. Wannabe – Spice Girls
  11. Because you live – Jesse McCartney
  12. Say My Name – Destiny’s Child
  13. No Scrub – TLC
  14. I want it that way – Backstreet Boys
  15. The boy is mine – Brandy & Monica

Enjoy your week. Let’s kick Monday’s ass!

Francesca

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100 songs to save your life..

So, while I was writing my post, I was listening to music, and I had this idea. I will put some songs, that they can give you strength to keep going in your worst days and moments:

1- Early Water by Bethany Joy Lenz
“You’ve got to be free like the birds
and run like these rivers
dance like the fireflies dancing endlessly together
You’ve got to shine like the morning, and tear out
your fences, stick around, double down and take all
your chances
You’ve got to grow like that willow and dream like
your daughter, you’ve got to be still…
Like early water”

2- Clean by Taylor Swift

“Rain came pouring down when I was drowning
That’s when I could finally breathe”

3- Broken by Lifehouse

“I’m falling apart, I’m barely breathing
With a broken heart that’s still beating
In the pain, there is healing”

4- Get it right by Glee

“What can you do when your good isn’t good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow”

5- All too well by Taylor Swift

“Time won’t fly, it’s like I’m paralyzed by it
I’d like to be my old self again, but I’m still trying to find it”

6- All of your life (You need Love) by Backstreet Boys

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“You need love
Don’t be scared to try again”

7- You can’t break a broken heart by Kate Voegele

“You can’t break a broken heart, so try your best now baby
Try your best to break me, you can’t break a broken heart”

8- Begin Again by Taylor Swift

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“I’ve been spending the last eight months
Thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe I watched it begin again”

9- You’ll ask for me by Tyler Hilton

“Well I am what you see
I am not what they say
but if I turned out to be
could you love me anyway”

10- Someone’s watching over me by Hilary Duff

“It doesn’t matter what people say
And it doesn’t matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you’ll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart”

11- Cannonball by Lea Michele

“I got this new beginning and I will fly
I’ll fly like a cannonball”

12- One Life by Boyce Avenue

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“You’ve lost your faith and a life that’s cursed
You’ve cried so hard inside it hurts”

13- Then slowly grows (Come to me) by Bethany Joy Lenz

“Everyday my dreams will get bigger
Then I hear there’s nothing
I can dream hasn’t been dreamt before
So I water my little faith
And hope for the better”

“So, if you flunk a big test, or you have a really bad breakup, or you just miss someone so bad it hurts, then listen to my playlist: A Hundred Songs to Save Your Life, and it should help.” –Peyton Sawyer

I remember it all too well..

I am probably gonna do a lot of posts about music but today I was walking in the underground and, as I am doing since the 1st of January, I was listening to “All too well” by Taylor Swift.

I don’t wanna get lost talking about 2014, because it’s been pretty sh–I mean rough and right now I wanna focus more about how.. this song helped me to get through these past months.

And no, I am not gonna talk about how people criticise one of the best songwriter that we have at the moment, because everybody need to think whatever they want, BUT I will talk to them too. You should, not even listen, read the lyrics of this song and then let me know if you really think that you can’t see yourself in the story of this song.

Anyway, let’s start with the post, shall we?

I went to Taylor’s concert the 10th February, and even if I was really far from the stage that I couldn’t even see her, it was one of the best concert ever. And when she sung this song, god, everybody was feeling what she was feeling: anger, sadness, acceptance that she couldn’t forget that person. Yeah, practically the stages of grief.

After that concert, I was literally, listening the song every single day, because I needed it. Because I was having panic attack, because I needed something for moving on. (I hope for you to never have a panic attack in the middle of the night. It’s one of the most awful thing that I’ve ever experienced! More than one time.)

You will probably be confused now. Or you’ll think, c’mon girl, you are so sad. Well, keep reading please, I’ll explain you with the lyrics why I love this song.

“I walked through the door with you, the air was cold,
But something ’bout it felt like home somehow.”

If you ever been with someone you know what this means. Everytime you are with that person, you feel good about yourself, you feel strong, and especially if you are far from home, you feel like you are not alone.

“And I know it’s long gone,IMG_5829 copy copy
And that magic’s not here no more,
And I might be okay,
But I’m not fine at all.”

After a while, months, that you are not with someone, the hope is gone, you have to be strong and move on. But, at the beginning, you’ll find yourself to think that you are okay, but at the end of the day, you’ll know, that you just lied to yourself.

“You tell me ’bout your past, thinking your future was me.”

That’s one of the worst feelings. When someone makes you believe that he\she actually wanna be with you, in the next months, in the next year but then everything just end. Without a reason and you feel like did they tell you a lie? did they really mean what they said?
Well if you had the answers, you are lucky.

“And I know it’s long gone
And there was nothing else I could do
And I forget about you long enough
To forget why I needed to…”

One bad thing that happens, when you were making plans about what you wanted to be or what you wanted to do, that in the moment you lose the person that you wanted to do all the things with, you are just numb. And when you try to forget that person, you start to forget yourself too. You don’t remember who you are, who can you trust, what do you really want and need.

“‘Cause there we are again in the middle of the night.
We dance around the kitchen in the refrigerator light
Down the stairs, I was there, I remember it all too well, yeah.”

Another “not nice” thing at the beginning, when you are really trying to move on, it’s when you have flashbacks of the good moments that you know, you’ll never have again (yes, you will have them. You’ll realise this later on.)
These flashbacks are the worst because your mind is tricky. Your mind wakes you up in the middle of the night and makes you cry because you realise that what you thought it was a nightmare it’s actually the reality. (and there’s the panic attack. Real story guys!)

Maybe we got lost in translation, maybe I asked for too much,
And maybe this thing was a masterpiece ’til you tore it all up.
Running scared, I was there, I remember it all too well.”

This is the bridge of the song, in fact I love it, it’s just the moment when you are pissed off with that person, because it’s just tore you apart and you think that you will never forget that you will never get over it. You think that it’s your fault if it ended, even if you didn’t do anything. You’ll blame yourself for a lot of things. Just because while you are in pieces, that person seems perfectly fine.

“Time won’t fly, it’s like I’m paralyzed by it
I’d like to be my old self again, but I’m still trying to find it”IMG_5873 copy

I am just looking at the screen of my MacBook now, thinking about the perfect words to explain this part of the song but.. the fact is that I am still trying to find my old self again. This is me now. Just looking at my screen and writing what I think you all should do. Don’t make my mistake. As much as you wanna close yourself alone and don’t trust anybody. Don’t do it. You will lose a lot of moments and friendship. Just stay close to the one that really loves you. Don’t tell me that you need to get over it by yourself, that you need to be strong. Because no one is, really, fully strong.

I think that everybody reacts in different ways, it’s not the end of the world, there are things that are worst than this. Trust me, I know. I am just saying, you’ll see who’s really your friend when you need them the most.

“and I walk home alone”

Oh, this. I remember..all too well. This part of the song made me cry for ages. Because it was actually real for me. Too real. And I remember actually that my mind, at some point, was shutting out this part of the song. It was way too much.

“I was there, I remember it all too well”

Advice: you should listen all the song. Live. And read all the lyrics.

I fell in love with “All too well” more after the concert, just because of the speech before she sung it. The day after, I’ve actually looked for any videos from the night before, only for this song. I needed that speech. And I’ve found a video, and after I’ve listened it for a few times, I’ve decided to write it down.

I remember that all the 02 arena was just so silent when she was talking, and we all had chills at the end.

And like I said in my first post, I’ve grew up with this song, and still, after 6 months, I am listening to it, and now I smile because, even if I remember everything, I am not sad. (maybe still a bit angry, but if you’ll know, you’ll say, how can you not be?)

If you are living something like this now, it means that THAT person, it’s not worth it. You’ll find someone better. If there is something that I say to myself since I was a child (no is not “you are gonna meet prince charming”) I think that everybody is destined to be with somebody sooner or later.

Best,

Francesca

“If I’m writing a song in the middle of the night, chances are it’s either because there’s something that I haven’t said to someone that I really need to, or the number one reason is that I’m trying to forget someone. And if you’ve ever tried to forget someone, it’s impossible to try to forget someone ’cause it just happens over time. There’s nothing you can really do to make it better and when I tried to write this song, it was to forget someone and all I ended up doing was writing a song about how everything about him, I remembered it all too well, you know?”