The singer that helped me to feel.

It was back in 2007 when a music video called “Teardrops of my guitar” had starring one of the actor from my favorite tv show ever. At that time, I couldn’t imagine that the singer would have changed my complete life after that.

Straight after that song came out, one of my classmate of that time suggested me to listen to a song called “Our song” and I knew already that song because the fact that THAT singer was a fan of my favorite tv show made me already a fan of her. Even if she was blonde. And it was a time that I didn’t like blonde girls (and I became one some year after!).IMG_5823

Well, if you still didn’t get it, the singer was the amazing human being that is Taylor Swift.

Yesterday, it was Taylor’s birthday. Her magic number 13, that somehow, it became a lucky number for me too.

AIMG_5943 lot of people don’t like her and don’t understand why is she so popular because she doesn’t have a strong voice or she is too skinny or she is a kid because she sings only about her ex boyfriends. Well, that’s just general knowledge that media likes to talk about.

If you just will give her a try and understand her true story, you may understand a lot about that ex girlfriend of yours that broke your heart or actually what you did to her when you decided to cheat on her.

But Taylor doesn’t sings only about this, she wrote a song for a kid that died of cancer, she goes to visit fans in hospitals and sings with them, she writes about having fun and be yourself because there is nothing wrong in that. She writes about being that shy dork that can’t take the courage to say to a guy that she likes him.

Taylor saved me a lot, especially in the past year. She was the only thing that I was holding on to. She was the one that made me understand that it’s right to feel a lot.

IMG_5855Taylor just writes everybody story.

She reminds you about being Fifteen and believe so much in love that you are too naive to understand when it’s not real.

And then when you thought that you had the first real Love Story but he was only playing with you and he just liked the attention. But you are so in love with love that you are just waiting for someone to show up on The Other Side of The Door.
Taylor taught us that it’s normal to have a crush on a Superstar and don’t be ashamed of it, instead sing to him and scream his name, even if you are just a normal girl.

More time pass, more I relate to her, and I feel like we are both experiencing the same thing. Especially when you just believe so much in someone, when you are just 100% yourself and they leave you behind and all that you are left with are the memories that you remember All Too Well. And even if you thought at that time that it would have last Forever And Always, you are just left with a broken heart.

But then you have that moment when you understand that they are just another Picture To Burn and that you have to pick up all the pieces and Begin Again.

And when they reach back to you, you just have to let them know that “All You Had To Do Was Stay”.

Tay made me realize how much I love simply a month of the year and all I wanna do is gIMG_5910o Back To December all the time because something amazing always happens. But especially she taught me that people will always be Mean and the only way to get over them it’s to Shake It Off because if you get angry, you just waste a lot of energy that you can use in something else. Something better.

Well, I can just say: Thank you Taylor. I saw you twice and it was a great experience both of times. I just wished I could have actually talked to you and make you understand that I don’t feel like a normal fan but that I actually understand your real message in a lot of songs.

I wish I could see you the next year too but I don’t think I’ll be able to.

I hope you had The Best Day yesterday,

Love,
Francesca

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“It’s Christmas time; there’s no need to be afraid”

So, I am brainstorming for a new post and I have so many ideas. Like deep blog posts that I wanna do, but I think they may will turn too deep or mean. So I’ve decided to do another song type blog, if you’ve followed my blog from the beginning you’ll remind my post, one of my favorite, about the song “All too well”  by Taylor Swift. As much as I’d love to do another post with loads of songs from her, because she keeps writing about my life, and I might do one sooner or later, I’ve decided to do a Christmas one.

It’s actually more personal than general, i’ll pick some of the most famous songs and just a few lines from them.

Let’s begin, shall we?

“Last Christmas I gave you my heart but the very next day you gave it away. large
This year to save me from tears, I’ll give it to someone special.”

I was listening to the song this year while I was working and it just came in my mind, it’s really something unbelievable when suddenly a song speaks to you, so I’ve started laughing and I said to my colleagues that I just loved the song and when I came back home, instead, I told to my best friend that this song it was so true this year more than the previous ones.

Last year, on Christmas time, I was with my family but my mind was in London, because of someone else, that someone else that broke up with me after a few days that I came back. So this year, I’ve decided to give my heart to myself, to my family, to my friends. They are definitely more worth it.

“I don’t want a lot for Christmas, there is just one thing I need. I don’t care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree. I just want you for my own more than you could ever know. Make my wish come true. All I want for Christmas is you.”large-2

First of all, as much as I love the original one, Michael Buble’s version is my favorite. Anyway, the story about this song is that every year I have a different crush so every year I sing this song to someone different haha but how can you not love this song? It’s just pure LOVE.

“I’ll be home for Christmas you can plan on me. Please have snow and mistletoe and presents on the tree”large-3

Can’t wait to go home for Christmas. You gotta love this atmosphere of happiness and family, and warm and food and just everything seems right.

And there is the song that makes me always emotional, the one that I think describe perfectly what is Christmas: Do they know it’s Christmas? You should buy it, they always do it for charity, every year is for a different cause.

“It’s Christmas time; there’s no need to be afraid large-4
At Christmas time, we let in light and we banish shade 
And in our world of plenty we can spread a smile of joy 
Throw your arms around the world at Christmas time”

We have so much and we could give more with just a little thing. So be nice and give a lot because even if you have everything, it doesn’t mean that the other are that lucky.

Best,

Francesca

There’s just no excuse not to get out there and try and help other people because of everything that I’ve been given. And it’s just a fire inside of me; I have a fire for justice.”
[Bethany Joy Lenz]

I remember it all too well..

I am probably gonna do a lot of posts about music but today I was walking in the underground and, as I am doing since the 1st of January, I was listening to “All too well” by Taylor Swift.

I don’t wanna get lost talking about 2014, because it’s been pretty sh–I mean rough and right now I wanna focus more about how.. this song helped me to get through these past months.

And no, I am not gonna talk about how people criticise one of the best songwriter that we have at the moment, because everybody need to think whatever they want, BUT I will talk to them too. You should, not even listen, read the lyrics of this song and then let me know if you really think that you can’t see yourself in the story of this song.

Anyway, let’s start with the post, shall we?

I went to Taylor’s concert the 10th February, and even if I was really far from the stage that I couldn’t even see her, it was one of the best concert ever. And when she sung this song, god, everybody was feeling what she was feeling: anger, sadness, acceptance that she couldn’t forget that person. Yeah, practically the stages of grief.

After that concert, I was literally, listening the song every single day, because I needed it. Because I was having panic attack, because I needed something for moving on. (I hope for you to never have a panic attack in the middle of the night. It’s one of the most awful thing that I’ve ever experienced! More than one time.)

You will probably be confused now. Or you’ll think, c’mon girl, you are so sad. Well, keep reading please, I’ll explain you with the lyrics why I love this song.

“I walked through the door with you, the air was cold,
But something ’bout it felt like home somehow.”

If you ever been with someone you know what this means. Everytime you are with that person, you feel good about yourself, you feel strong, and especially if you are far from home, you feel like you are not alone.

“And I know it’s long gone,IMG_5829 copy copy
And that magic’s not here no more,
And I might be okay,
But I’m not fine at all.”

After a while, months, that you are not with someone, the hope is gone, you have to be strong and move on. But, at the beginning, you’ll find yourself to think that you are okay, but at the end of the day, you’ll know, that you just lied to yourself.

“You tell me ’bout your past, thinking your future was me.”

That’s one of the worst feelings. When someone makes you believe that he\she actually wanna be with you, in the next months, in the next year but then everything just end. Without a reason and you feel like did they tell you a lie? did they really mean what they said?
Well if you had the answers, you are lucky.

“And I know it’s long gone
And there was nothing else I could do
And I forget about you long enough
To forget why I needed to…”

One bad thing that happens, when you were making plans about what you wanted to be or what you wanted to do, that in the moment you lose the person that you wanted to do all the things with, you are just numb. And when you try to forget that person, you start to forget yourself too. You don’t remember who you are, who can you trust, what do you really want and need.

“‘Cause there we are again in the middle of the night.
We dance around the kitchen in the refrigerator light
Down the stairs, I was there, I remember it all too well, yeah.”

Another “not nice” thing at the beginning, when you are really trying to move on, it’s when you have flashbacks of the good moments that you know, you’ll never have again (yes, you will have them. You’ll realise this later on.)
These flashbacks are the worst because your mind is tricky. Your mind wakes you up in the middle of the night and makes you cry because you realise that what you thought it was a nightmare it’s actually the reality. (and there’s the panic attack. Real story guys!)

Maybe we got lost in translation, maybe I asked for too much,
And maybe this thing was a masterpiece ’til you tore it all up.
Running scared, I was there, I remember it all too well.”

This is the bridge of the song, in fact I love it, it’s just the moment when you are pissed off with that person, because it’s just tore you apart and you think that you will never forget that you will never get over it. You think that it’s your fault if it ended, even if you didn’t do anything. You’ll blame yourself for a lot of things. Just because while you are in pieces, that person seems perfectly fine.

“Time won’t fly, it’s like I’m paralyzed by it
I’d like to be my old self again, but I’m still trying to find it”IMG_5873 copy

I am just looking at the screen of my MacBook now, thinking about the perfect words to explain this part of the song but.. the fact is that I am still trying to find my old self again. This is me now. Just looking at my screen and writing what I think you all should do. Don’t make my mistake. As much as you wanna close yourself alone and don’t trust anybody. Don’t do it. You will lose a lot of moments and friendship. Just stay close to the one that really loves you. Don’t tell me that you need to get over it by yourself, that you need to be strong. Because no one is, really, fully strong.

I think that everybody reacts in different ways, it’s not the end of the world, there are things that are worst than this. Trust me, I know. I am just saying, you’ll see who’s really your friend when you need them the most.

“and I walk home alone”

Oh, this. I remember..all too well. This part of the song made me cry for ages. Because it was actually real for me. Too real. And I remember actually that my mind, at some point, was shutting out this part of the song. It was way too much.

“I was there, I remember it all too well”

Advice: you should listen all the song. Live. And read all the lyrics.

I fell in love with “All too well” more after the concert, just because of the speech before she sung it. The day after, I’ve actually looked for any videos from the night before, only for this song. I needed that speech. And I’ve found a video, and after I’ve listened it for a few times, I’ve decided to write it down.

I remember that all the 02 arena was just so silent when she was talking, and we all had chills at the end.

And like I said in my first post, I’ve grew up with this song, and still, after 6 months, I am listening to it, and now I smile because, even if I remember everything, I am not sad. (maybe still a bit angry, but if you’ll know, you’ll say, how can you not be?)

If you are living something like this now, it means that THAT person, it’s not worth it. You’ll find someone better. If there is something that I say to myself since I was a child (no is not “you are gonna meet prince charming”) I think that everybody is destined to be with somebody sooner or later.

Best,

Francesca

“If I’m writing a song in the middle of the night, chances are it’s either because there’s something that I haven’t said to someone that I really need to, or the number one reason is that I’m trying to forget someone. And if you’ve ever tried to forget someone, it’s impossible to try to forget someone ’cause it just happens over time. There’s nothing you can really do to make it better and when I tried to write this song, it was to forget someone and all I ended up doing was writing a song about how everything about him, I remembered it all too well, you know?”