Some people are here just to judge. But they don’t know that if I watch myself in the mirror and I don’t hate anymore the face staring at me, it’s a big achievement.
They don’t know that if they start to put me in the center of attention, I’ve learned how to not let my anxiety overcome (not always).
They don’t know that I might feel lonely more than they do.
They don’t know that after 5 years, I still am sometimes overwhelmed on speaking a language that is not mine.
Most of the people don’t know my story, and I don’t want them to know, but they do have this idea of me having this perfect life. But do they know about the struggles that I had in my life? Do they know that I had to grow up when they still didn’t know how to cook an egg?
They don’t and they shouldn’t know.
But I am not somebody that shuts up easily. I could react and this could blow off in a way that I can’t control.
But on the other side, I learned how to let go, even if some people won’t believe me, I learned how to not pick a fight when someone wants to.
I have changed so much that a little part of me is proud of who I am and what I’ve overcome during all these years.
I got up after I literally touched rock bottom so I can achieve everything else in life. I am not afraid. I will fight with all my energy.