One Love Manchester

This morning, I woke up and I was still feeling amazed by the emotions that “One Love Manchester” concert gave to all of us yesterday night.

We are living in a really dark moment as I see it, still, that concert has been a light to remind us to not be scared to live.

The artists chose their songs carefully, they all had some kind of meaning or actually a new meaning.

From “Where is the love” that is an amazing song per se to “Strong” with the amazing change of lyric that Robbie Williams did to the super sweet duet between Miley Cyrus and Ariana Grande with “Don’t dream it’s over” to the Coldplay, that maybe I can’t be objective about this, but they always bring the best cause they truly sing their lyrics truly and believing in it to the amazing surprise that wasn’t what we were expecting but still amazing Liam Gallagher.

But let’s talk about Ariana Grande, she is 23, she is super famous and trust me I always thought her song was catchy but I never been a fan of her, but Ariana, after this concert and what you brought together, that for me wasn’t the name of the artists that were there, I won’t go technical to who can sing and who can’t, that doesn’t matter, it just important what you put together and it was unbelievable inspiring.

She is 23, she could have not care, she could have just done little but she did A LOT, she did something amazing.

Cause people think she is famous, so she didn’t feel the same of others but that is not true, I wanna remind everybody that she thought it was her fault if that terrorist attack happened, like she could have known, of course, it wasn’t her fault.

She did amazing, she brought so many artists together with such a short notice. And everybody was feeling loved and having fun.

Because this is what a concert is, a concert is a place where people get together to share a passion for music. For something that for sure makes their day better.

When she sang with the choir, I think we all lost it, those kids they had such a big dream come true after such a terrible accident.

This concert was beautiful, the people that were there showed so much grace and strength and fearless that was inspiring.

And let’s please talk about the police officers dancing with the kids, that was the best part of it.

Yesterday showed me exactly the reasons why I love this country, why everything that is trying to tear us down it won’t win.

I woke up inspired. Thanks, Ariana and the people at the concert to showed me what is courage and love.

Love,
Francesca

Please donate whatever you can here: https://beta.redcross.org.uk/appeal/manchester-emergency-fund-concert

here you can buy and donate: https://uk.onelovemanchestershop.com/

How do you start to love yourself?

I’ve been told that I need to love myself more. I’ve been repeated from people, billion of times, that I am worth more of what I think I really am worth. And maybe that’s true but how do I even know how to start to love myself. How should it work? Shall I just focus on what I do good and don’t focus on what I do bad? On the things that I achieve rather than the ones that I fail in?

This is what I was writing about it in this kind of journal that I have, after I’ve noticed that I didn’t write since February, I’ve taken a pen and started to write feelings out because I was feeling bad after a few weird days and words started to flow and from one page I wrote three full pages and from one subject to another, I ended up to talk about how I don’t know what should I do to love myself. Is this sad? Yes, I know. I’ve spent so much time disliking everything about me, from my body to my mind, from my weakness to my strength that I don’t remember when it was last time that I actually said to myself “hey you are cool”.

I always put others before me and this is what I am, I prefer others happiness rather than mine. If my friends and family are happy I don’t mind if I am depressed and hate myself. “Hate” is a big word. I don’t know if I really do hate myself, but for sure I am not happy but why? That’s what I wonder and I have a long list of reasons. I won’t bother you with those.

So what are the steps of starting to love yourself? Repeating in the mirror “you’re fabulous?”. (well I won’t do that)

We live in the era of social media and trust me I hate it, as much as I use it like a crazy person, I HATE IT. I’ve been thinking to get rid of all of them and I might be crazy enough to do it one of these days because at the end of the day we all scroll through other people’s fictional life (nobody posts their real life) and we all think what we are doing wrong with ours.

I’ve searched on Google, how to learn to love yourself, I am not ashamed of it, I need to start somehow but honestly, it doesn’t help does it? Most of the points are “eliminate negative thoughts”, well if it was that easy I won’t be looking on the internet, won’t I?

So, for whoever is reading this blog, I know I’ve been gone for a long time, please share your stories and tell me. I am willing to learn because things need to change around here and I hope this will help someone else who feels stuck like I do.

Sophia Bush said this past weekend “Self-love is not selfish”, well that’s a lesson that I need to learn for sure.

Best,

Francesca

Script: Bus Scene

So let me give a bit of introduction to this: a few years ago, I took a Director’s course and we had a class about scripts and how to write them right etc. I left the class and I was straight away inspired, I wanted to write about something that I had in my mind for a long time and that I thought if I would have written it down, it would have changed the way I was feeling. So, this is called “Bus scene”, I would love to hear comments about it since it’s kinda personal and if you more or less wanna know what happened before this scene and after, maybe I’ll find the right inspiration to continue to write my story.

So well, hope you’ll like it. I remind you that NO ONE ever read this.

Out. Bus station. Late night.

Joy is with her two friends Sophie and Laurel waiting for the bus to come up. Even if she waited for Ben to leave, she finds him at the stations with another girl, so she hides behind the seats so that he won’t see her and her friends are with her.

JOY

Let’s stay here till he’ll get the bus.

Sophie nod. Joy can’t stop looking at him.

SOPHIE

if you keep staring he will notice you.

Joy looked at Sophie furious about him, at the same time their bus approaches the station so they move forward to get it but the bus doesn’t stop and keeps straight.

Ben notice them and smile to Joy. She smiles back.

BEN

Missed it.

JOY

Yeah.

Then she moves to the seats and she sits down, Laurel and Sophie follow her. While she keeps staring him, Joy decides that it was the moment to approach him about their situation.

JOY

I am gonna talk to him

SOPHIE

Do whatever you feel to do, but you can’t keep wondering.

Joy looks at Sophie and then stands up.

LAUREL

Sit down. Don’t waste your breath. He’s not worth it.

Joy sits down again.

SOPHIE

She has to do it, she can’t keep going like this. And he is not gonna talk.

Joy stands up again. Laurel give her a bad look and then turn to look at the street. Joy, feeling brave, approaches Ben and interrupts a conversation with the blonde girl.

JOY

Ben, can I talk to you one second?

Ben gives her a caring look and nod.

BEN

Yes, of course.

They move next to the pub, that it was close at that time, behind the bus station. Joy takes a deep breathe and look directly at his eyes.

JOY

You know what do I wanna talk about?

Ben smile becomes concern

BEN

Yeah, I can imagine.

JOY

You know. [she pause] you know how I feel about you. You know. And you make me believe that you feel the same, but I need to be sure about it because you are not doing anything and I can’t wait forever. Do you feel something more?

Ben gives her a sad look

BEN

No- I do care about you but we are just friends. Nothing more.

Joy is hurt but she doesn’t wanna show to him

JOY

I understand.

BEN

I don’t wanna lose you a friend. I really care about you but not in that way.

JOY

Why didn’t you tell me before? Before you mad me believe-before people made me believe..

BEN

Which people?

JOY

Our group, people in the pub.

Joy is still putting a mask to not show him.

BEN

I – I don’t know what to say. I didn’t wanna talk because I was scared to lose you. You are one of my best friends here in London.

Ben looks at her really sad, so she keeps her mask and hugs him.

JOY

It’s fine. You won’t lose me. You are one my best friend too.

BEN

I don’t wanna hurt you.

JOY

Don’t worry about that. I am kinda used to.

Ben smiles and hugs her. She pulls off.

BEN

Are we okay?

Joy nods

JOY

I have to go now. See you tomorrow.

She starts to walk and go back to her friends

BEN

Please don’t hate me, Joy.

She turns to him and fake a smile

JOY

It’s impossible for me to hate you.

She goes back to Sophie and Laurel and sits next to them.

SOPHIE

How did it go?

Joy looks at her and smile while she is trying not to cry

JOY

Let’s go home.

Ben goes back to his friend and turns and smiles at her while his bus is approaching.

Int JOY’S APARTMENT. Late night.

SOPHIE open the door. Joy and Sophie enter.

SOPHIE

You were really brave

JOY in her mind thinks that brave didn’t bring her anywhere. She nods to Sophie. She goes to her room and sits on the bed. She wanted to be alone but her other two flatmates follow her. Brooke and Sam. Both brunette, tall and pretty girls. 20-something years old.

BROOKE

Hey, what happened?

JOY

What always happens.

Sophie looked at Joy and then Brooke

SOPHIE

She talked to Ben

SAM

What did he say?

JOY

That we are just friends. Joy the girl that will always be friendzone.

SOPHIE

Joy!

JOY

That’s fine. I am used to right. Every time I like a guy he doesn’t like me back. It’s always the same old story. I will probably always be alone. I am not meant to be with anyone.

SAM

don’t be so hard on yourself.

BROOKE

He is a dickhead. That’s what he is. He always showed something more and now he says that you are friends. He is an idiot.

Joy smiles a bit.

Ed Sheeran:÷

Ed Sheeran is a genius so hate on you if you don’t like his last album.

Honestly, there might be one or two songs that aren’t the best but in the complex, it’s such a great freaking album.

I have so many favs (except Shape of You and Castle on the hill)

Supermarket Flowers: this is such a raw, emotional song. For who doesn’t know, Ed wrote this song straight after her grandma passed away. And you can hear the emotion in his voice. But just the lyrics are so amazing: “ I hope that I see the world as you did cause I know a life with love is a life that’s been lived”

This song is making the whole world cry. And fun fact, he wrote it from his mum POV.

Save Myself: this is so personal to me, why? Cause when you gave yourself to every single person in your life, out of selfless, just cause you are made like that, you would expect that they would do the same. But of course, it never actually happens. So you need to start to learn how to save yourself from the outside world before saving others. The last three sentences are the best, they give me chills all the time and the first time I heard the song, I had wide eyes and I smiled: “So before I save someone else, I’ve got to save myself. And before I blame someone else, I’ve got to save myself. And before I love someone else, I’ve got to love myself.”

New Man: this song is so good because it’s exactly how everybody feels when someone that you used to be with, find someone else and this person text you back?! Wait, what? Well, I like the beat of this song and the story per se. The moment when you see someone that you know very well changing because of the new person in their life.
The lyric that I love from this song: “I am just keeping it real, still looking at your Instagram and I’ll be creeping a little. I’ll be trying not to double tap, from way back, cause I know that’s where the trouble’s at”

DONE. THIS IS MY NEW SONG.

Galway Girl, Dive, Happier, What Do I know, Perfect, Barcelona, BiBia Be Ye Ye (Everything will be alright), How Would You Feel.unnamed

I am honestly falling for one different song every day. Today was Dive cause it kinda explains a situation that is going on in my life at the moment.

Anyway, if you haven’t listened to it yet, WHAT ARE YOU DOING READING THIS? GO, MATE. GOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

Best,

Francesca

Sorry!

Sorry people,

I have been MIA in the new year, I have been dealing with some stuff and I’ve been trying to be as busy as possible so that I won’t think about my life and blah blah.

I wanna publish some things in the blog this year, that till now, NO ONE, ever read. Some scripts that are really personal and that I wrote a few years ago, that hopefully, one day, will help me out to finish a book that I’ve started a long time ago.

So, keep following the blog and you’ll see some news soon.

Best,

Francesca

Merry Christmas ya’ll : holiday tips

It’s that time of the year where you are excited but at the same time scared to have all the family reunited. These feelings will kill ya and you will stuff your face with food cause..DUH!

So let me give you some advices:

1- pack the things that you know you will use 100%
2- Put on your best (fake) smile, you will need it for all those annoying questions that you will get from the family: do you have a boyfriend? Are you getting married soon? What about kids?

WHAT ABOUT WE STOP WITH THIS?
3- Remember that life is short and that you should celebrate all the wonderful moments that you will have these days.
4- ALCOHOL WILL SAVE YOU THESE DAYS. If alcohol doesn’t work for you go for chocolate. 
5- IT’S THE MOST WONDERFUL TIME OF THE YEAR, that doesn’t last long. 
MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE! (Or Hanukkah) 

Gilmore Girls: A Year In The Life (Winter)

Winter:

Just the first minutes makes you wanna cry. If you’ve been a fan of the series since their first beginning, you will remember those familiar notes. And like it happened to me and some friends of mine, you will start to cry and get all emotional.

We have this shot of the gazebo and Lorelai with a cup of coffee, as we know her, and Rory will arrive shortly after. They start to talk super fast, as they’ve known for, and then they go around the town talking about all the weird things happening.

Nothing much happens in this episode still I cried a lot through it. When we see Emily and how she is dealing with the pain of losing her husband and honestly all those flashbacks from the funeral and after funeral were really hard to see.

As we all know, Edward Herrmann, died back in 2014 and we all can see that those tears, that we see in our beloved characters, are actually from the real person behind them.

As we go through the episode, we notice that Lorelai is not the same, she is not keeping any cook in the Dragonfly Inn, after Sookie left. This is making Michel going crazy.

Rory is moving around, she doesn’t have anymore a “home” she stays to Lorelai’s, or to Lane’s, or to Emily’s, or to..Logan’s when she is in London.

That was a big twist of the episode, Logan and Rory are secretly seeing each other even if they’re both in relationships.

Now, I don’t wanna be judgemental, but this is not the Rory that we knew, I understand she is lost but nope. When I saw it the first time I didn’t wanna believe how immature she was acting, but at the end, I understand where the writers wanted to bring these.

In this episode we meet Paul, the guy that everybody keeps forgetting, I don’t even understand why did they even create a character like this one.

And then we have one of the biggest return that we needed: PARIS FREAKING GELLER. And she works in a fertility clinic? That’s just perfect. Poor Luke, he couldn’t understand what he needed to do with those girls.

At the same time, Rory is working on a book with an English woman that everybody keeps telling her that she is..something.

We can see that Help Alien are still rocking and the little boys of Lane and Zac are helping them out.

At the same time the episode it’s working around this “lucky” dress that Rory has but can’t find and one of the best quote from the episode is between Rory and Lorelai when the last one says to her that any outfit without underwear is the lucky outfit.

At the end of the episode, Lorelai goes to apologise to Emily about what happened at the funeral and we see Emily IN JEANS. Just like, the best thing ever. She suggests to the mother that she should go to therapy and at the end Emily makes Lorelai accept to go to therapy with her in a tricky way.

Overall it was a nice episode to start and put the fundamental for the 4 little movies but something was off already and that was the decision for Rory’s storyline, cause she is 32 not 22.

I understand that Amy and Daniel decided to kind of not consider the 7th season, apart from Lane’s children, but this is not the Rory that they built for 6 seasons. I liked Logan when they were 20 and they were going on adventures and do reckless things but not now.
This was a disappointment.

Emily is the best, Kelly Bishop deserves an Emmy for this interpretation of Emily, you can totally see how much she loved the character and how hard she worked on it.

Same goes to Lauren, Lorelai journey is just at the beginning but you can see that she is dealing with the death of Richard in a way that nobody can understand, not even Rory.

For the rest, I love that crazy town and every single person in it.

Coming soon, Spring…

Francesca